Controlled chaos

This is day two after my surgery and I feel like I am surrounded by controlled chaos. Myself, my mom, and Preston are going through our belongings to decide what moves with us, what gets donated, and what is just trash. As I look around the room, I see a variety boxes, bubble wrap, and every sort of random household item. It looks chaotic, but they have some sort of order to the madness that I just don't get to be a part of. 

The fact that all I can do is lay here is very frustrating. I would like to be up and about helping to pack things up! 

I did have a lovely day before my surgery celebrating Mother's Day. Below are a couple photos from that wonderful Sunday.

Roses for mom

Mom and I at dinner

View from the restaurant 

Easy breezy

It is a gorgeous spring day outside, the windows are open, and I am loving the sweet breeze dancing across the apartment. The surgery yesterday went well, so now I am relaxing with my feet up surrounded by two of my favorite people - my mom and Preston. They are spoiling me to bits and I'm loving every moment! 

I am a bit of a struggle right now, unable to get around very easily and pretty doped up due to the pain killers. I'm very happy all went well yesterday and that I am safe at home without too much pain. 

I am feeling so thankful for my wonderful caregivers and for this beautiful day. I am truly lucky! 

Surgery, moving, and other stressful things

Today I was suddenly faced with the fact that I have several stressful life events right around the corner.  I've been so busy up until 8 p.m. tonight to even notice that a lot of change is upon me. I'm having surgery on both legs on Monday, leaving me off work for two weeks and on crutches for six, I'm moving to a new state on June 3rd, and I'm looking for a new job. Eek!

It is difficult to come to terms with the fact that I will be on bed rest for two weeks with not much to do besides read books, watch movies, and twiddle my thumbs. Okay, I exaggerate. I do love watching movies and reading books, but not when that is practically the only thing I am able to do.  Once off painkillers, though, I will be working remotely and applying for jobs in earnest. But I am still not looking forward to the hours of being reclined. 

I went to yoga tonight to try and clear my mind, and I dedicated my practice to being mindful of and grateful for a body that bends, moves, and feels strong. Even though I am not perfect, I am so thankful of what I do have. Soon I will not have the capability to move about as freely as I am used to, so I will focus on cherishing these last couple days of mobility and be appreciative of all the great things in my life.